quick quick quick, guess where am i!? im in NP concert band room.. lol!!! today's pretty interesting taking into consideration what happen today. LOL.

work up early today to do jas's tutorial cuz i misplaced the previous copy, only to find out that her tutorial is in the afternoons lol.. should have slept longer. Then today during tax, my turn to present tutorial... bored!! too simple.. lol!! the SCC today was really interesting, "da-he-chang" or "big-combine-sing" no orginals songs were sang today, all cover songs were done. well well well, wad can i say? hehe... should sing some of the orginal songs written by others in order to promote the spirit of song composing. well, now im at the NPCB(Ngee Ann Concert Band) listening to the Baracuda doing their reheasals. tml's apparently the "Reds Camp" though i have no idea wad's that apart from that there's over 2000 kids.

Oh well, time for dinner!! mAkAn!!!


ARRRRHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


1/2 past dead.... flu fever cum swollen throat, now im here at home smoking somemore.. opps. ^^ but at least it's not that bad, on the fact that jas came over and bought me lunch and now trying to drag me to see doctor.. haha.. omg.. feels so sweet to have some one taken care of, hmmm.. should i get sick more often then? wahahaa...

anyway, now im physically sick but mentally healthy. ^^

thank you baby!

Mood: dead..
Song playing now: Perhaps love


Boring.... im currently stuck in tax class and listening to boring mono-tone talks by Lousia. zzz... cant she by any chance be hotter or at least speak with mroe life? sheesh.. i mean, what is this all about? tax is boring enough and with her... GOD! this is like, OMG.... forget about tax all together, Note to self: never date a IRAS girl and if my girl actually work near taxation department, breakup. BORING!!

anyway, seems that i response too fast o payment bills and stuff like that, apparently i paid my outstanding bill to my other line, now have to retify all these rubbish. Gosh..

Oh ya, did i mention that im with a new girl now? ah lian worr... *wink* now have you noticed? :p


Just came back from bball this afternoon, tired.. kinda sprained my pinky finger.. but that's not the one i'm interested in.

Singapore Motorshow 2006

Take a look on the side, haha.. lazy to comment.. ^^"


YESH!! finally manage to update my blog skin, gimme you comments!!


finally, the drama has been subsided.. to all people who are dying to know what has been happening, well, here's the fact

We are going out but not together

So stop assuming that we were together and making lives of others horrid..

To all my receptive friends, thanks for being there, at least i know i could count on u lot when the going gets tough.

To all my deceptive friends, thanks for being there to remind me of the better side of life.


Why do the distant past never seem to be able to allow me to move on? why is history repeating itself with different characters but similar setting? why can't things just be as it it!?

i had it with all the events that has arose; seems like everytime i try to do something for myself, to make myself happy, apparently it always back fires!! is it so impossible to make myself happy and others at the same time? why is my own decision be judged by others again? Can't you guys just mind your own business!? Must i always be the bigger man and always walk away from the things that meant to me most? 1st is lil one, 2nd is band, 3rd is SCC... but no worries, i'll walk away from all in order to make everyone happy, to keep hatred away from me, to keep skeptism away from me, to keep my interagity intact, most importantly to keep most people happy.

Don't need to leave the band because of me, i'll leave it for you sake since u made it so clear it's my fault. Don't start something that you cannot finish.

i felt so dumb to reject lil one's call.. i know ur're worried... but i'm simply too fustrated..fustrated at the fact that what i forecasted might happen to you just a few hours ago acutally unfolded.. fustrated at the negative feedback i got from people whom i thought are acutally receptive instead of deceptive; those who only judge me for whom i appear to me and not whom i'm really am..

guess i shall walk alone like i always do... one less worries for all... *shurgs*

Mood: "given up"
Song playing now: 冰雨 - Andy Lau

P.S: for all loveless, self-contradicting, self-pitying people out there, this is for you
"if you love someone, don't hesitate, go for it, don't wait till you find it gone only then to start panicking, and most importantly, stay on course and stay faithful to what you initially set out to do, if not when things don't work out, don't hit out and put a front that makes people around you worry, you'll be hurting the people who care for you and those whom you least expected to..."


When it rains, it pours. Yesterday's MP was a great disappointment to myself, the day actually came naturally to me, the song that would explain it all, the reason for my recent behaviour.. Anticipation to sing it out was stronger than expected, but then, it had to rain.. sheesh..
Location was shifted but then the equipments had to fail; feedbacks, low batt, unless mics, of all screw up, mine.. anyway, that's not it, halfway thru the performance, there had to be disruption and killed my hearing; totally couldn't pitch and thank god there was sean who carried on the riff.
But what really killed me that night was the that my past appeared... brought back memories and painful scene that flooded my mind, which made me more determined to sing out the best of my song (shall not say about how this song came about)

The truth (about us)
4/4
Em G D A7 – chorus verse
C G Am
C G D – bridge
Verse 1
What was it then you didn’t know
The love was real and so was i
How did time unwind it self,
Scars so deep I rather died…

Verse 2
Had a chance to say I do
But it seemed that god did not approve
You missed my words and let me pass
Epiphany was what you left to me

Chorus
Stop the lies that made us true
It didn’t had to be that way
Couldn’t you just give me the faith?
To be the man that you never knew
Why did you choose forsake and not
Lie on my shoulders when it counts
I’m locked inside my room,
as I look upon the closen door…

Verse 3
You tell me you have tried but things doesn’t seem to be that way
Why would you’ve chosen to lie cause I still don’t believe that is you

Chorus

Bridge

Chorus

Well, to top it off, lil' one had to cry her heart out.. not blaming her but, it was almost the breaking point for me, well... anyway, water under the bridge, it's over, just wanted to blog it down to remind myself of such a day which everything almost made me the old me again, the one whom i wan to ignore and forget. (^^)"

Mood: Sniffy (running nose)
Song playing now: Enimem - My Dad's gone crazy


too many screws up today... saw too many things i aint suppose to.. everything kinda didnt went as planned... it's hard to keep smiling to others when it's breaking up inside... sigh..

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