Friday, September 15,6:57 AM
the wait is over!
wah!!!! i passed!!! wahh!!!!
Thursday, September 14,9:55 PM
final judgement
i'm worried... tml is the day of exam results release... would i fail? would this be the end of my time? time for private schools? so many thoughts running through my head.. it's almost like it's the final judgement when u stand before the panel of judges and just before the verdict is pass, you clentch your fist, hold ur breath and pray for all eternity. gosh.. now im really finding so hard to fall asleep.. everytime i logged online, the though flash through my mind.. "would i fail" no matter how many people say "don't worry lah, can one lah" but it's something lingering on the back of my neck.. just feels that something is wrong.. gosh... scared...help me get through this...i really hope i did well enough to get me through this patch.. at least this patch for now.. Mood: Nervous and anxiousSong playing now: Li Sheng Jie - Shou fang kai
Sunday, September 10,11:46 PM
i don't understand..
when was the last time that i've actually sat down and have a productive conversation? well.. thinking back, perhaps a couple of years back.. the changes that have taken place, the people that we associate with and things i've done, it's so much different that it was back then.
what was i back then?
haha, back in secondary school, much of the time spend on was well, girls?! always pursueing, hoggin and at times, even seen as pleading with them to be accepted and acknowledged as their bf or nowadays termed "flings" the amount of time spend on girls are well, incredible!!
sadly but truthly, girls nowadays are simply..."friends with benefits" i mean, no offence to ladies reading my blog this i have to state. but majority, and most ladies i associate myself with, tend to have the mentality that guys are just simply to be used, to be exploited and to be hung around them like a piece of jewellery, fashion statement, a fancy car. noticed how the genres of ladies around are coming together like one hugh mob of crazy fans screaming to be heard, and that its a organised and precise coordination of mayhem? just take trend for instance, 5 years ago the trend of being the "good-little-schoolgirl" was the in thing, everyone tried to be smart, intellectual and dates only the smart guys, 3 years ago was the "kawaii" stuff, and more recently, the korean heatwave.
i'm often left wondering, what happened to those "down-to-earth" kinda ladies? those which just wanna spend time with those whom they treasure, to appreciate, and not to dominate, to demand kinda ladies? what happen to them? did we men do something wrong along the way? i seriously dunno.. true love.. does it ever exisit?
sigh...
that's something i really dunno and i would really hope someone can give me an answer... shed some light on the shadow which has been lingering inside me for so long..
Hello. I'm Desmond.