Victory!! today's business law paper was somewhat unexpected, well, things usually turn out that way, for some people like myself, well, it apparently works in a different manner of which motivates and also inspires me to do things and try things that i'll usually never do.
Today's paper was somewhat, well, difficult, easy for some, challenging for me, case laws that i refered to are well, apparent, but when i started counting marks, it just doesn't make sense, somehow i think i'm gonna flunk my business law module and get kicked out of school... again. sigh... perhaps my mind ain't working in a way it's suppose to be, or rather that it ain't working totally. can't focus, neither can i upon trying, actually remember most of the important things that matters the most to me.
Just finish watching Adam Sandler's "50 first dates", it was awsome. yeah, it's an ancient show that has been boardcasted long ago, but hey, im an oldies' person. :) in another way, it made me reaslise, perhaps you had me thinking too cedric, that life ain't simply just about work and commitment, it's how you make of it, and yeah, i kinda contridict myself at times, and i still do, but, to me seriously, love ain't something i'm looking for in life now, not as my priority, im only 22 and they are like micro-burst and before i even know it, damn, i might be 30 and still bringing home a $900 dollars a month if i don't put studies and career 1st. at least Henry (Adam sandler) knew what he wanted, to make a girl happy and has a life that he wanted, to sail to Alaska to study warrious, or at least that's how i spell it. :) i don't, my priority in life now, for the near future is not to establish a family, but a career, so yeah, stop telling me that i actually need to get a life, cause i do. rememeber what i always say to you,

"dreams will never become reality until you do something about it"

For all other things in life, well, they can come later, at least let me live a life that i have truely wanted and aspire to be not what the society wants, but what i want. It might not be pretty, it might not be good, but at least, that's my accomplishment, at least before i forget about it the other next day. haha...

Mood now: nervous and jumpy (exam period)
Songs playing now: I just don't love you (I'm sorry) - Craig David




Women
An adult female human.
Women considered as a group; womankind: “Woman feels the invidious distinctions of sex exactly as the black man does those of color” (Elizabeth Cady Stanton).
An adult female human belonging to a specified occupation, group, nationality, or other category. Often used in combination: an Englishwoman; congresswoman; a saleswoman.
Feminine quality or aspect; womanliness.
A female servant or subordinate.
Informal.
A wife.
A female lover or sweetheart. See Usage Note at lady. See Usage Note at man. See Usage Note at person.

Strange but somehow it says nothing about being more emotional nor did it say something which brings them more vulnerable to emotional traps?
just recieved a call from my friend mandy at let me check, 255am.. sheesh, and there i was having a hellofatime with my fantasy, and here comes along a whiny girl screaming to me the problem she had stuck with her for 1 1/2 mths time. The problem arose from my my buddy, ernest, who somehow got this magic ability to alter and change someone's life and prospective. INCREDIBLE!
What is love, what is happiness? well that's the question of the day, my answer is that, it's something not to be seeked but to be discovered accidentally. True love/happiness goes together hand in hand, ever wonder why whenever you wan to have a good relationship but often ending up screwing yourself at the end of it? wonder why the poorest of people often have the happiest life? well, because they do not demand, they only wish for it, but not crave for it. It's easier to turn the other cheeck when problem or mishaps that come along the way instead of running away, when i say turnin the other cheek it refers to being optismistic about it, look at it in a more light-hearted manner, it's not too hard to actually embrace the fact that things aint the way it's suppose to be.. the simplest answer's are often neglected by the excuses that are presented in front.

Ockcam's Razor
A rule in science and philosophy stating that entities should not be multiplied needlessly. This rule is interpreted to mean that the simplest of two or more competing theories is preferable and that an explanation for unknown phenomena should first be attempted in terms of what is already known. Also called law of parsimony.

For things that you already know, stop wallowing in self-pity and regret, if you already know what's the cause of it, stop finding more excuses and hurt yourself even more. God... somehow i find that i'm going insane from all these posting.. almost treating it like a person.. im tired... pen out..

Song playing now: Non
Mood: Tired & Fustrated



Bored... Urgh.. reading stuff that doesn't get into my head, my body is craving for some action, my mind needs some stimulation, my hands needs some action, my feet just wanna start moving. Help!! im bored!!
Then again, i made myself that way.. hehehe.. afterall it's like only 1 week away from my exams.. oh did i mention? i lost my wallet and somehow, by some miracle of some idiots, picked up my wallet and did not bother returning it to me when they see me frantically searching high and low for it while they simply picked up; it was under my seat when they picked up.. darn bastards...
oh well, time to head back to my books, im being bugged by my friend of what am i doing, n if he knows i'm blogging i'll be complained of leaving him alone. Time to pen down.

Song listening now: Non
Mood: Hot and fustrated.


it's raining again!!! ARH!! had to rush home to get my windows closed, thank god my maid closed it for me in time. ^^ just came back from a chat with my friend cedric, and what a chat that was. Supposedly to be just a 10mins smoking session turned into a 2 1/2 hr chat of his problems. It's quite interesting how things turned out for someone. "what i want vs what i need"
For me, his current problem is that he do not know what he want and what he really needs, as a fella like myself, stuck in early 20s with O levels and nothing else, in NS and wake up call just hit in his face.. he's a really poor thing; dunno what he wants. A career with money? a job to satisfy him? just pure cash irregardless of job type? friends? what kind of friends does he want? just chill out friends? friends with benefits? the questions are endless.
my reply to him was simple, it boils down to one, "oneself"
when you know what you want, you'll do it irregardless of the hinderence and problems that might arise and fall upon you. when you are sure of your goals, age/money/politics/family/time/etc are not a factor in your goal, why? simple, you'll find route and means to overcome it.
Too old? when are you too old to learn something new?
Too poor? part-time jobs are available everywhere
politics? why do you want to get involve in it? just mind your own business
family? they are always there for you!!
etc? what other excuses are you giving yourself? stop it!
i really hope he can find the answers to all his questions, sometimes the easiest way out of a problem is to stop thinking about it and action. "dreams are always dreams unless you turn it into reality" for anyone out there reading my blog and if you are facing something similar, just remember this, nothing is impossible if you are determined. *smiles*

Song playing now: Lost prophet - Rooftop
Mood: calm, collective


yawn... i mean seriously, it's like 630am and i just got home? not ur typical eve-of-holiday-must-club kinda guy, but still, sheesh! now let me recall wad i did...
11am - woke up
12pm - lunch
1pm to 3pm - revision for exam
3pm to 5pm - House HD (axn)
5pm to 7pm - DOTA at beauty world bukit timah
7pm to 9pm - alazza and alameen
9pm to 11pm - DOTA at bukit timah shopping centre
11pm to 12am - Billard at bukit timah shopping centre
12am to 2am - poker cards at eurasian's guy's place
2am to 3am - with weiming,john,ren busy watching sg girls and their port folio (sssssizzzling HOT! wonder why can't i find them in NP...)
3am to 4am - dozing off.. still thinking of the chicks with tits (ps. not chicks with dicks..)
4am to 6am - Xbox
6am to 630am - walking home...
630am till now - blogging and about to doze off..

that's a wrap! met up with a bunch of guys supposedly to watch the fireworks but somehow too many raging hormones, in the end played DOTA which i had no idea WTF.. oh well, all's well end's well. if only i could find the ladies!!

Song listening now: non
Mood: sleepy and still missing those girls.. (fine.. im a loser, so sue me? o0o)


It's 2 weeks and counting.. time for extreme panic and phobia for me, Fundemental Financial Accounting/Business Law/Finance of International Trade. hmmm.. what catagory do i fit in? i believe i belong to the slow-but-steady-but-if-don't-study-will-die. ><" so right now i'm like in Ngee Ann's library, level 5.. chilling out and singing to craig david, haha!! am i suppose to be even doing this? well, guess not, but it's a kinda nice way to chill out and take my mind off some issues... so here i am with Fuxian - the hyper manic, melissa - the sleepy one, jacqueline - the basketballer, zeming - the zebra.
How's my revision coming along? god.. it's really bad. Words and sentense just doesn't seem to enter nor have a place in my mind.. i really need to work on my brain department, wonder if there is any remedy for such a disease as "lousy-badmemory-brain* AKA LBB. Business law im like reading time and time again, but it just something it refuses to go in!! URGH!! so fustrating!!
today's been quite unfullfilling.. not much studied, too many fags, too many blister, too many jokes and laughter, hahaha.. its like something i have been missing too long.. wonder how long will this last..
oh well, time to pack my stuff and leave for home..

Songs playing now: Craig David - I just don't love you
Mood : Crappy!!!


Ever wonder wad makes a good relation?
Is it the care and concern that your partner showers? or perhaps its the lust and musky scent that emits from the heat under those sheets? or perhaps its just plain old senseless love? unspoke of, unconditional, a person whom you thought is often taken for granted, but is literally indispensible. well, perhaps..
i wonder, what do i actually wnat? do i want a relationship of a girl whom i can take care of? or am i the one in need of being taken care of... been through several relationships but amist all, i have yet to understand what is the meaning of love; sad but true. i often ask myself this question. "Can i live without them?" often than not, the answer is yes. why? because i have so much on hands at the age of 23, darnit! Exams, socialising, parties, racing, gigs, booze , sports and so much more!! but again... at the end of each day, i often find myself savouring these feelings alone with the companionship of my 4 walls.. even with exisiting relationships, i've yet to actually find a really comfortable one; one which understands what i yearn for, what do i possess and help me with my directions. It's like a crossroad of needs verus wants.
yes, im a selfish guy, but hey, com' on , which guy is perfect right? Usually you will find self proclaimed top-of-the-breed guys that says "i know what i want/you are just a kid/you should learn to think on your own/etc" but yet at the same time, the they often contradict themselves, if not, becoming the legendary MCPs of singapore, if not SNAGs.. so i wonder.. what does make a good relation? if not a good partner?
i wonder...

Song playing now: Rhianna - Unfaithful
Mood : calm...


Wow, time really flies when your're enjoying it.. been really caught up in my school work and stuff like that.. sheesh, couldn't make out what's my final destination nor my final objective, im literally living day by day... since the event that happen in year 2001/2002, my life's has never been the same again, and now, my worst fears are about to materialise, unless i actually walk out of from the shadows of shame and disbelief, if not, im screwed..
School's been a mess, especially with my project group mates, noticed how they never EVER learn from advises and even when answers have been placed in front of them, they simply choose to neglect and onli sulk at the person whom initially wanted to help them but in the end got the cold so-why-if-your-right look. Kids nowadays really need a good wooping to wake them up.
Talking about wooping, there's this new kid in class, or simply, kid. Ian, 18 years old, refusal to admit to his own mistakes, chinese punk kid with no sense of rythme, west-side wanna be with 2 piercing, white chinese trash, with lousy command of english, and did i say white trash? i mean chinese crap sh*t. Classic example of wannabes, social smoker who smokes but fears for this health, told him not to smoke in front of the toilet entrance if not could get caught, dun listen, *abracadabra* caught by lecturer. now comees the cute part, he couldnt say that he was smoking, instead ask me to lie to the school board in order to cover his sorry ass, sheesh! i mean, wads wrong with kids now a days? what happen to the "each man for himself" and "brotherhood" now is more like, "Divided we stand, united we fall", in hokkien, "ai si long zhong si"
now im like incredibly bored...

Songs I'm listening to: Nick Lachey - What's left of me
Mood: Hot and fustrated..

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