Simplicity: Key to sucess

2008-06-12T13:15:00.000+08:00

I admit... i'm a lazy blogger... updating only like once every year, but so much has happened in 2008 i just NEED to write it down; might actually forget what happened...

Most significant happening, I'VE MOVED HOUSE!!!! so that means that i'm no longer at my old place, DUH~ anyway, pictures of my new place would be updated as soon as i reached home to do some updating. It's pretty cool if i may say so myself? haha

2nd, i've gotten my NEW HP laptop, courtesy from Starhub Maxonline, but then again, still trying to find a use for my new laptop apart from gaming

3rd, I'VE REACHED LEVEL 60 FINALLY!! after months of struggling and doughs spent.. finally i've accomplished level 60! ok, now moving on to 70... *wink*

4th, I've FINALLY RESUME my DRIVING!!! considering that my last driving practice/practical/evaluation ended back in 2007 april, ITS BEEN A HECK OF A BREAK! but then again, dumb BBDC not enough instructors.. now have to wait till july for my turn.. zzzz.. i only need to get my final evaluation done, then get my TP passed, then im OWNING THE STREETS!!! but in the meantime, guess only public transports... *sad*

5th, for some reason, i've rekinder my passion for photography, wonder if i can start seeking for candidates for a photoshoot..

6th, opps! not so much stuff i'd suppose. haha, well, back to work! OH YA!! before i forget, i'd got kicked out by SIM but accepted by MDIS, school starting for me in August 12th 2008, at MDIS campus, Bachelor of Science (Hons) Accountancy & Finance. hope i can get my license around that period too... haha

Till the next update,

"Deixa o samba rolar"!

2007-08-19T23:27:00.000+08:00

wow, been so long since i've last blogged. oh well.. just to recap certain stuff currently happening..

1) Kinda dislocated my right shoulder a couple of days back then, no idea how i popped it though, just knew that i woke up around 4am plus in servere pain. was actually dumb enough not to recongnised it for 2 1/2hrs trying to sleep it off only to make it worse.. i mean seriously, how to dislocated ur arm while sleeping!? i have no idea, in the end, rushed to bukit gombak this chinese "sin-seh" who popped by shoulder back, seriously, THERE WAS NO PAIN, but it cost a bomb though, $95 for popping it back just like that, but then again, no other shop was available there and then.. so ya, fortunately for me.. ^^ oh well, thanks for all whom showed their care in a way or another and especially to my baby love, who took one whole day off just to popped by my place to take care of me.. was really touched by your gesture; no one paniced like you did..

2) Starting from tomorrow, it would be my exam week. although only 3 modules examinable, but it seems like so hard and so many?!? i can say i won't flunk my RFA but, seriously concern about my MA1 and my FMS.. sheesh.. tml another sleepless night..

3)oh ya, almost forgot to mention, went to watch fire works on saturday with parents and jas and dumb people crowded everywhere and for some reason, i ended up standing directly behind a tree and got my whole view blocked.. saddenly case.. haiz.. but the atmosphere was incredible, people boo-ed at double decker buses and people cheered when the fireworks went off. though blocked, i got to experience the better things in life, family. ^^

2007-07-16T04:35:00.000+08:00

it's like what, 4:35am and im still unable to slp.. lied down on my bed for like 5 hours... tossing and turning.. seemed to have tons of things on my mind.. things i wanna do, but just ain't capable of doing, have things to say, but words don't come out right, songs i wanna sing, just ain't the right time, promises made but not yet fulfilled.. so many things pacing and racing through my head.. what has happened? i really do not know... i wanna run, but away from what? sigh.. perhaps just one of those nights.. perhaps.. i'll never know..

2007-05-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

mmmm.. just realised 2 things,

1. Vista ain't that fantastic. Appearance wise is incredible, with a lot of good improvement to interface and also being more user friendly when u finally get use to it. But overall, currently it still sucks.. not compatible with my printer, Cd-Burner nor with my Laptop.. irritating...

2. The person whom i thought was changing for the better, has changed for the worse, and on top of that, you called me "kor".

You know who you are.

What makes u think u can always shoot ur foul mouth off at people who did not offend u, what makes u think that they can stomach ur nonsense? silence DOES NOT mean concent, and if u realised, i stayed away from you this semester, for a freaking good reason; i aint want ur nonsense no more. But what else can u pull? well, if you got issues with me, ask me. No point going 1/2 way round to someone else and blowing ur top off just to say "i dunno if i can trust u anot"
What kinda person do you take me for when i asked you nicely "can u tell me what's wrong with him" and you come over, "you guess la, you guess la" and "i'm not gonna tell you" if your're not bothered, dun even start. Stop behaving like a spoiled brat who cuss and swears like it's so cool, cause it ain't.

I'm offically stating here for a fact that i had it with people who ain't got the respect to actually tell me that "hey, we've got a problem here and let's do something about it" if you are not one of those people, well, i'd just say, FUCK off. and yes, i expect you to go around talking behind my back and stuff, cause that's what you have been doing, but just a caution,

i have a short fuse, don't ever let me find out. i've been more than tolerant towards you for a sem.. u ever tempt me again, i will NOT hesitate to come down on you hard..

2007-05-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

tired..

that's the word which comes to my mind everytime i wake up, to see the morning sun is to know that the day is going to repeat itself; nothing's gonna change no matter how i try to look on the brighter side of it..

why is it that i feel so cold? feel so unattended, so brushed aside, that my actions all seemed in vain.. the things i do, to spend time with you, all seems so unfruitful; we'll end up everyday quarrelling or at least bad facing each other. why?

seems like all the honey is to be shown in private, no public affection, no frequent attentions towards each other, treating each other as if that we were perhaps courting each other but not to let others know.. the distance that is keeping us apart is growing ever so wider..

things that you've said you'll do, things that you've wanted to do, wish to own, i've provided them all, but still, i feel that i'm being left out, kicked aside, only got your attention when u need something from me.. i'm not being selfish or what.. but this is seriously how i felt..

sigh... i really feel down these couple of days.. really am getting tired of all this fights.. im really.. gonna break down soon..

2007-04-22T03:09:00.000+08:00

just came back from Momo with ernest/rizal. it's was de last night of clubbing and whoh, guessed what? b actually knew i was clubbing and said yes without frowning, that's a revolutionary change!! thanks! but damn, it was FAR from happening, well, partly due to 2 other chap who aint in the mood of dancing, though surrounded by tons of grinding chicks, turns out to be TOO many!! had too many guys too.. in short, IT WAS PACKED! not much fun when it's all guys outing esp. when there is no chicks nor gfs to dance with, more like 3 gays.. lol. We've talked abt it just now and have decided NEVER to club with just guys again, instead, gonna do a triple dating like soon, and when de sun's still out and stuff. interesting~

oh ya, dumb Man U drew with m'brough... now lead is cut to 1 point.. damn damn damn damn..

oh well, that concludes another day of my boring life. off to bed for now.

2007-04-14T04:07:00.000+08:00

well, unable to sleep, so apparently popped online a while and guess wad i found? i know how do teens spend their newly acquired talents in multimedia. check it out

Actually it's taken from the show "16".. i'm still looking around for the sequel

and i found it! *lame* -_-

and you MUST check this out, with a mum like this, no need to scared wad ah beng ah lian or anything else that matters

haha... really interesting.. ^^ food for thought!

2007-04-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

mmm.. i wonder, tammy is taboo due to her "home-made vids" being circulated and was banned for her "unsightly" behaviour. now i wonder, what do you make of these?

So do share your views

2007-04-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

I really dunno why, but now a days, i'm seriously affected by the songs i listen to..

Friends: # A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
# A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
# A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
# One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.

but recenetly i kept asking myself, what are friends? who are my friends? whom do i know that really knows me in depth? whom that i can confide and trust in whatever i do? that in times of need, do not turn around and stab me in the back, nor ignore me when im present...

But to those whom knows that i'm true, vice versa, i thank you for being there for me all these time. Hope i can really know who are my friends and who are just passing by....

Title: 天高地厚
Band: 信乐团

你累了没有　可否伸出双手
想拥抱　怎能握着拳头
我们还有很多梦没做
还有很多明天要走
要让世界听见我们的歌
准备好没有　时间不再回头
想要飞　不必任何理由
不管世界尽头多寂寞
你的身边一定有我
我们说过不管天高地厚
想飞到　那最高最远最洒脱
想拥抱　在最美丽的那一刻
想看见　陪我到最后谁是朋友
你是我最期待的那一个

可以一起闯祸一起沉默一起走
可以一起飞翔一起沦落
不管天高地厚陪着我
陪我一起大声狂吼
想飙到　那最高最远最辽阔
想唱完　那最感动的一首歌
没看见　那天高地厚不肯放手
因为我有我想要的朋友
你是我最想要的朋友

2007-03-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, songs seems to express the simplest of feelings..

Boys 2 Men
On Bended Knee

And I....

Darlin' I, I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

CHORUS:

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they used to be
Oh God give me the reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again, until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know that I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

CHORUS:

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they used to be
Oh God give me the reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again, until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

(Baby, Im sorry. Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done.
Please come back home girl. I know you put all your trust
in me, I'm sorry I let you down. Please forgive me girl.)

I'm gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe, in the spirit of love
it can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees, begging you please
Come home

CHORUS:

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they used to be
Oh God give me the reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again, until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

(Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family)

Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way things used to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again, til you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

2007-03-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

another day, another quarrel.. just like always.. hard to have happy times, hard to do the things that we use to enjoy.. forgotten, forsake, misunderstood...it's not that i don't care about you, u know deep down inside i do, that's why i'm still here and not away from you.

what makes it so wrong that i did? i did not claim that i am single when im not, i did not make love to another girl and get caught 5 times by you like your ex, i did not disregard your feeling when you say u do not like about me doing something else.

I did forsake my friends for your sake, i did try to make all your fantasy and dreams come true, i did try to change and make an effort to head down your place like u wanted, i did and have been changing so much till i've really lose track of myself..

what am i doing? why am i doing this? what happen to me? most importantly... who am i?

i really dunno.. i really feel so trapped and engulfed in this tiny airspace that i'm allowed to breathe once a while.. sigh... i'm just blogging this out to seek another area of freedom.. this is my only escape, my only way to let things out without complicating things.. hope you'll understand..

but baby, for your sake, i'll still press on till i'm that perfect man that you seek and hunger for.. i'll keep on trying..

2007-03-05T04:03:00.000+08:00

its officially 410am.. well, it is to my digiclock so yA, haha! i tried to slp but apparently i can't been watching unbeatables 1 (old stuff but still nice to watch, whoh.. yan kun, long ting guang, yan fei, qi feng...) and been "dota"ing with AI, sia la.. crystal maiden hard to use.. >< nice to haress though, lol!

anyway, suppose to wake up @ 430am to pack up stuff and you know, shower and stuff, but yup, apparently i can't even sleep so yA... oh did i forget to mention?
I AM HEADING TO HONG KONG!!
Flight's apparently @ 8 but suppose to reach there by 630am, and booked a taxi @ 545am, so in the meantime, OH OH OH OH ! forgot to mentioned, as i couldn't sleep, i actually called macdelivery, one mac chicken meal upsized and one large fries on the side. hehe!! i seriously hope can gain weight! (^^)

so now, what do i expect to see in hong kong? well, hope to see more "meimEi"s and stuff, but typically is to go there to shop, drink and RELAX!! yeah! hmmm.. most importantly is to find the infamous "tong luo wan" in the olden secondary school days "young and dangerous" (PS. for people who dunno, "tong luo wan" is also known as "causeway bay" in hongkong) i hope that there ain't ah bengs or parang waving people around, but chicks are welcome lol!

i'll try to update you people as much as possible during my trip there yA? PROVIDED i can find a computer linked to the net, if not, gottta wait for my trip back to find out! ^^

PS.PS.> im coming back on the coming friday 1945hrs ^^

2007-03-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

well, was kinda bored, so as i was browzing about the web and surfing the net, i stumbled upon this vid. lol! almost laff the shit out of it. lol check it out

oh yeah, btw was surfing irc... YES MIRC!! where all the despo guy and horny people lives and stayed.. had to actually download the thing to use it. lol well one thing for sure, the horny guys are everywhere and the ratio as per my secondary sch days are still 20:1 and check this new channel called "#netmeeting" really weird people stays there, got this nick who calls herself "jennifer" pmed me with sms like, "im hot and wet.. would you like to see me?" so being the typical male, plus my beloved baby is starving me of.. well.. think about it.. lol, so i said yes and eww... she was a big turn off.. show u her picture.
so you see, she ain't much of a hottie and her name was apparently michelle as embedded in her picture nick. so DARN! guess she's from our beloved red-light-district if not some darn horny girl, well if u guys are interested, just quip urself with a cam and she'll entertain u like no tml, i had to block her off sia lol!! real horny thing i tell u lol. anyway, here's her add " wat_a_girl_wants@hotmail.com"
good things must share rite? yawn..

OH YA!! must make it clear,
THIS IS NOT A SCANDEL!!! baby, are you listening ? THIS IS NOT A SCANDEL! just merely a post.

Anyway, jason just "jio"-ed basketball tml, 4pm @ KSL, whoh.. too much details, then again, too lazy to press backspace.. lol fingers just went on and on..

oh ya, today suppose to go for the SCC handdown, but things has it that most peeps i'm close to ain't attenting, and that somewhat i felt leftout of the club, so yup.. decided to not go at all, if not gonna be a sorethumb.. lol

alright then, im bored.. heading to bed now! NITEZ!!

2007-03-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

couldn't slp.. kept tossing and turning, something just ain't right, somethings are so artificial to me, so opaque.. i know i'm wrong in a way, but guess sometimes things just what they seemed to be huh..

i'm sorry for shouting and being mean, was hoping to get some things off my chest, to be honest to u just like u are to be, but perhaps, my manner of speaking is not really tactful.. well.. for that i'm sorry..

i know u need someone there for you, but the thing is that, how sure are you that you've really found the one your're looking for? sigh... sometimes, the things u do and say doesn't really go hand in hand...it just simply makes me think, are we really alright..

to hear you say that before you hung up and yet see this entry.. it really puzzles me..

2007-02-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

Today is Tuesday!!!

Another holiday has passed, feeling darn bored now.. just finished "audition"ing and now blogging, why my girl wanna feel sad? there's nothing to feel bad about learning something new, everyday, everything, every moment is new and strange, dun feel that just because it's hard and everyone else is doing better, you give up.. makes me feel damn lousy not able to do anything about it..life ain't that bad if u look at it from another angle.. you have the talent and the ability to do it.

have i done wrong to excel and try harder? have i cause her to be like that? makes me think.. i shouldn't have even appear right? so that i can leave u at where u wan urself to be.. sigh.. my fault..

2007-02-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

im BACK!! with a vengence!! lol.. as if, im just back here to blog and sorry folks for not updating my life with u guys.. but oh well, exams over, and now comes the holidays!! and yeah! im heading to disneyland Hong Kong soon!! tag me if u wan me to get something for ye yA!?

oh ya, this is wad my friend told me to do while at home

and there you have it!! i mean, yeah, im a scorpio, but this is ridiculous!! a kama sutra ?? lol

NP open house 2007

2007-01-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

Wow.. today's day 1 of the open house and i gotta say, NP's really doing a great job with it; new structures, good looking booths, inviting Singapore Idol Taufik Batista/Paul two hill/etc, performances by SAF MDC, Saw Losers, and tons of performance by the NP CCA clubs show casing their stuff.

But to me, the highlight of the day is BARACUDA BATUCADA!!! whoh hoh! my 1st 'live' performance with them is nothing short of INCREDIBLe!! haha... well.. i'll just make it short, go tml to the open house and watch us live if not check on the blog tagged on the left side of my panel. ^^

Song playing now: non
Mood: super tired... -_-

2007-01-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

why why why why.... why does passing feel like failing.... just got 2 of my papers today, Tax1 and Cost Accounting.. both of them though pass, but feel so much difference... felt so useless, felt so dumb... now worrying for the rest of my papers... hope it can tahan and pass... luck has nothing to do with it.. it must be pure hardwork!!

DARN IT! time to fuck all rubbish games and concentrate and salvage what little stuff i have..

Mood: Fucked up!!
Song playing now: Nil

2006-12-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

it's 530pm le and sunday, omg.. exams next week and im feeling the pinch and nail-biting sensation, omg.. >< my costing sucks and so does my tax.. wonder how am i gonna live thru this sem.. oh ya, can someone tell me what's "mo gong"?? haha, heard a couple of 'em said but have no idea wads that.

doubts building, question pacing, uncertainity... what you said kinda made me think.. mmm.. another question for another day i suppose....

Mood: Jumpy
Song playing now: Hey ya - Outkast

2006-11-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

quick quick quick, guess where am i!? im in NP concert band room.. lol!!! today's pretty interesting taking into consideration what happen today. LOL.

work up early today to do jas's tutorial cuz i misplaced the previous copy, only to find out that her tutorial is in the afternoons lol.. should have slept longer. Then today during tax, my turn to present tutorial... bored!! too simple.. lol!! the SCC today was really interesting, "da-he-chang" or "big-combine-sing" no orginals songs were sang today, all cover songs were done. well well well, wad can i say? hehe... should sing some of the orginal songs written by others in order to promote the spirit of song composing. well, now im at the NPCB(Ngee Ann Concert Band) listening to the Baracuda doing their reheasals. tml's apparently the "Reds Camp" though i have no idea wad's that apart from that there's over 2000 kids.

Oh well, time for dinner!! mAkAn!!!

2006-11-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

ARRRRHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

1/2 past dead.... flu fever cum swollen throat, now im here at home smoking somemore.. opps. ^^ but at least it's not that bad, on the fact that jas came over and bought me lunch and now trying to drag me to see doctor.. haha.. omg.. feels so sweet to have some one taken care of, hmmm.. should i get sick more often then? wahahaa...

anyway, now im physically sick but mentally healthy. ^^

thank you baby!

Mood: dead..
Song playing now: Perhaps love

2006-11-22T11:52:00.000+08:00

Boring.... im currently stuck in tax class and listening to boring mono-tone talks by Lousia. zzz... cant she by any chance be hotter or at least speak with mroe life? sheesh.. i mean, what is this all about? tax is boring enough and with her... GOD! this is like, OMG.... forget about tax all together, Note to self: never date a IRAS girl and if my girl actually work near taxation department, breakup. BORING!!

anyway, seems that i response too fast o payment bills and stuff like that, apparently i paid my outstanding bill to my other line, now have to retify all these rubbish. Gosh..

Oh ya, did i mention that im with a new girl now? ah lian worr... *wink* now have you noticed? :p

Singapore Motorshow 2006

2006-11-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

Just came back from bball this afternoon, tired.. kinda sprained my pinky finger.. but that's not the one i'm interested in.

Singapore Motorshow 2006

Take a look on the side, haha.. lazy to comment.. ^^"

2006-11-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

YESH!! finally manage to update my blog skin, gimme you comments!!

It's over.....again

2006-11-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

finally, the drama has been subsided.. to all people who are dying to know what has been happening, well, here's the fact

We are going out but not together

So stop assuming that we were together and making lives of others horrid..

To all my receptive friends, thanks for being there, at least i know i could count on u lot when the going gets tough.

To all my deceptive friends, thanks for being there to remind me of the better side of life.

Déjà vu

2006-11-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

Why do the distant past never seem to be able to allow me to move on? why is history repeating itself with different characters but similar setting? why can't things just be as it it!?

i had it with all the events that has arose; seems like everytime i try to do something for myself, to make myself happy, apparently it always back fires!! is it so impossible to make myself happy and others at the same time? why is my own decision be judged by others again? Can't you guys just mind your own business!? Must i always be the bigger man and always walk away from the things that meant to me most? 1st is lil one, 2nd is band, 3rd is SCC... but no worries, i'll walk away from all in order to make everyone happy, to keep hatred away from me, to keep skeptism away from me, to keep my interagity intact, most importantly to keep most people happy.

Don't need to leave the band because of me, i'll leave it for you sake since u made it so clear it's my fault. Don't start something that you cannot finish.

i felt so dumb to reject lil one's call.. i know ur're worried... but i'm simply too fustrated..fustrated at the fact that what i forecasted might happen to you just a few hours ago acutally unfolded.. fustrated at the negative feedback i got from people whom i thought are acutally receptive instead of deceptive; those who only judge me for whom i appear to me and not whom i'm really am..

guess i shall walk alone like i always do... one less worries for all... *shurgs*

Mood: "given up"
Song playing now: 冰雨 - Andy Lau

P.S: for all loveless, self-contradicting, self-pitying people out there, this is for you
"if you love someone, don't hesitate, go for it, don't wait till you find it gone only then to start panicking, and most importantly, stay on course and stay faithful to what you initially set out to do, if not when things don't work out, don't hit out and put a front that makes people around you worry, you'll be hurting the people who care for you and those whom you least expected to..."

Leaky Day

2006-11-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

When it rains, it pours. Yesterday's MP was a great disappointment to myself, the day actually came naturally to me, the song that would explain it all, the reason for my recent behaviour.. Anticipation to sing it out was stronger than expected, but then, it had to rain.. sheesh..
Location was shifted but then the equipments had to fail; feedbacks, low batt, unless mics, of all screw up, mine.. anyway, that's not it, halfway thru the performance, there had to be disruption and killed my hearing; totally couldn't pitch and thank god there was sean who carried on the riff.
But what really killed me that night was the that my past appeared... brought back memories and painful scene that flooded my mind, which made me more determined to sing out the best of my song (shall not say about how this song came about)

The truth (about us)
4/4
Em G D A7 – chorus verse
C G Am
C G D – bridge
Verse 1
What was it then you didn’t know
The love was real and so was i
How did time unwind it self,
Scars so deep I rather died…

Verse 2
Had a chance to say I do
But it seemed that god did not approve
You missed my words and let me pass
Epiphany was what you left to me

Chorus
Stop the lies that made us true
It didn’t had to be that way
Couldn’t you just give me the faith?
To be the man that you never knew
Why did you choose forsake and not
Lie on my shoulders when it counts
I’m locked inside my room,
as I look upon the closen door…

Verse 3
You tell me you have tried but things doesn’t seem to be that way
Why would you’ve chosen to lie cause I still don’t believe that is you

Chorus

Bridge

Chorus

Well, to top it off, lil' one had to cry her heart out.. not blaming her but, it was almost the breaking point for me, well... anyway, water under the bridge, it's over, just wanted to blog it down to remind myself of such a day which everything almost made me the old me again, the one whom i wan to ignore and forget. (^^)"

Mood: Sniffy (running nose)
Song playing now: Enimem - My Dad's gone crazy

tired day...

2006-11-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

too many screws up today... saw too many things i aint suppose to.. everything kinda didnt went as planned... it's hard to keep smiling to others when it's breaking up inside... sigh..

Moments

2006-10-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

It's strange how things come and go that.. a sudden change of atmosphere, a cheery friend, background of good music, a simple music, a simple hi.

well, today i had to really give it to my new-found mate. a simple picture and she'd made my day complete. show you all

It's cute right? haha.. had been smiling to myself for the past hour just looking at this. well, it goes to show that it's the simpliest things in life that we usually over look, but it's often the most rewarding.. how i wished all things were as simple as that... why would things often not turn out the way it was planned to be.. how hard is it to lead a simple life.. i guess the irony of it all would be that life is that it's a living contradiction.. it's hard to lead a simple life...

A shoutout to my girl, thanks for being there and hearing me whine these few days. ^^" it's been hard on you but yeah, it'll pass soon i promise.

Mood: Cheery
Song Playing now: Figured you out - Nickelback

it's over!!

2006-10-29T04:47:00.000+08:00

phew.. finally after a length conversation that lasted 1 1/2hr, things are finally sorted out.. aint how it funny people never admit their mistake? but tend to be hiding behind lies and people but never to stand up for what they believe in?

well apparently i have learn that never trust anyone but your own , people lie..

"every patient lies" *extracted from House MD*

In the closing events, though all parties finally understood each other's meaning, the damage was done.. the door has been closed... im alone once more..

but all's not lost, we have stronger understand for each other which could be carried forward in future experience..

hey xiaoxin, didnt mean to pester you or anything but there was definately chemistry flowing for the moment that evening, perhaps not for you, but for me. I thank you for making that moment possible. (",)

hey lao-da, no need to apologise le, we understand where your're coming from, though the event has hurt me, i've taken it in my stride, so don't let it haunt you no more. Word of advise: don't let the ghost of your past hold you back, your're better than that.

Guys, LETS JAM!!

Mood: on the road to recovery..
Song playing now: Non

I'm done..

2006-10-29T02:06:00.000+08:00

the previous blog has been removed due to some discomfort that it has brought some people...

anyway! finally figured out to put songs!! whaha.. self achievement can?

oh steve asked me to head down to DXO but kinda stood him up, sorry bro, but the crowd doesn't please me, too many monsters around.. scared la.. *hides*

anyway!! for those who are concerned over my previous blog, no worries, im alright. (",) thanks for your words of advice, at least i know who are true and who are not.

Cheers!

Mood: Smooth!
Song playing now: Burn (remix) - Usher

Tutorials!!!

2006-10-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

OMG!! just reached home from jamming session in school... more like a rehersal though.. no one knows their stuff.. ><" oh didnt i mention? im in a band, just hooked up recently Lead - Weijie Rythmist - Me 2nd Rythmist - Jason (2nd) Keyboard - Weiming Drums - Jason (1st) Vocals - Charlene and if ur're gonna ask me abt the band's name, well, forget about it, IT'S NEW!! anyway, cracking our heads on how to rearrange the song "breakaway" by kelly clarkson.. need to find means to actually change the tone and the feel of the song, to be sorta a cross-breed of a rock ballard vs sendimental pop. well.. that's the homework for today i suppose.. oh ya, one more thing. i think i might have, MIGHT HAVE, actually liked someone, but not too sure abt the counter part though.. could be just the moment, you know, like the song, "stuck in the moment" by U2? yup, somewad but who knows. ^^" now rushing my tutorials as i blog and chatting with LA PI XIAO XIN!! wahahah! funny how she always puts icons xiao xin doing the ricky martin. >< think too much time on her hands ba. wad to do, just bear with it loh... :p

now back to business, i need to rush my tutorials!!

Mood: tired..
Song playing now: Non

Tired..

2006-10-23T14:31:00.000+08:00

So tired... it's 240pm now... god.. haven't had my lunch, plus now waiting for J and WJ, sheesh.. wonder when are they coming.

now currently slacking at SCC, listening to chinese songs and practicing my chinese characters and stuff.. wonder how it works to help my already dead mind set.. hehe.. hungry!!!

tomorrow's a public holiday and ive already gotta balance both family and someone.. sheesh.... im really drained right now.. what would i not give for a nice bed and a good time to sleep off for a whole day.. hmmm.. look forward to the next saturday ba.. *shurgs*

Mood: Tired
Songs playing now:Push - Matchbox Twenty

Sunday Maddness

2006-10-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

yo! finally can blog again!! computer is no longer going mad... keke..

so wad has happened today? INTERESTING!! wahaha. supposedly to be a simple outing of band members turned into something more than we bargin for, for starters, its 5 guys and 1 girl.. *grins* DONT GET ME WRONG!! no gang bang or anything like that. haha! but really, that charlene's vocal capabilities are incredible, high and clear, then again, its charlene..lol

apart from that, peer pressure works magic though, lol. WJ kinda had a thing going but is "perhaps-shoulda-mightbe" shy by nature, and vuala! he's has a thing going for C but still ultimate denial!! haha! i wanna match up but gosh, tone down tone down. lol cannot fight bruder for girls. ^^

apart from that, today's gossips and "suanning-sessions" are incredible. it's been quite sometime since i've last done that, kinda getting TOO tone down i suppose? should i restart my habits? or just maintain? hehe.. well.. for now i'll keep my profile tone down ba.

tomorrow is gonna be another day of fun fill nonsense again wahaha, till then... DOTA!!

Mood: Crappy!!
Song playing now: Living on a prayer - Jon Bon Jovi

Hazy mood..

2006-10-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since i've last blogged, well, apparently this is the time, hazy days, lazy mood and boring day. haha

let me update myself on the recent happenings, been really bumped up at work, being overworked under paid, got my 1st attachement pay, a pathetic 500 bucks for a month of slogging... all's not that bad with the recent squabbling with amanda, the bitching of cedric, a noob at dota(something i recently picked up) hooking up with this old girl nat and most recently, signing contract to my brand new condo "raintree", technically speaking its mine, cause its signed under my name, but morally speaking, its my dad's haha! DUH~ he's paying (><)

all this attachment life has led me to realise, never be honest.. and never be NICE! they'd always take you for granted, that i can assure you. lol

so much has happened in these recent two weeks, (counting from my last blog perhaps even longer) but im taking it all in my stride, just looking forward to the end of my working life and back to school and my lovable guitar jamming session, been really missing times just coffee and a good time strumming my gig.

right now, i just wanna chill and enjoy my life as it is, too much back stabbing by friend, (shall not point fingers but shall hint as one of the names that keep appearing in my blogs)

peace out

Mood:coughing
Song i'm listening : Do you like it - Our Lady Peace

the wait is over!

2006-09-15T06:57:00.000+08:00

wah!!!! i passed!!! wahh!!!!

final judgement

2006-09-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

i'm worried... tml is the day of exam results release... would i fail? would this be the end of my time? time for private schools? so many thoughts running through my head.. it's almost like it's the final judgement when u stand before the panel of judges and just before the verdict is pass, you clentch your fist, hold ur breath and pray for all eternity.

gosh.. now im really finding so hard to fall asleep.. everytime i logged online, the though flash through my mind.. "would i fail" no matter how many people say "don't worry lah, can one lah" but it's something lingering on the back of my neck.. just feels that something is wrong.. gosh... scared...

help me get through this...

i really hope i did well enough to get me through this patch.. at least this patch for now..

Mood: Nervous and anxious
Song playing now: Li Sheng Jie - Shou fang kai

i don't understand..

2006-09-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

when was the last time that i've actually sat down and have a productive conversation? well.. thinking back, perhaps a couple of years back.. the changes that have taken place, the people that we associate with and things i've done, it's so much different that it was back then.

what was i back then?

haha, back in secondary school, much of the time spend on was well, girls?! always pursueing, hoggin and at times, even seen as pleading with them to be accepted and acknowledged as their bf or nowadays termed "flings" the amount of time spend on girls are well, incredible!!

sadly but truthly, girls nowadays are simply..."friends with benefits" i mean, no offence to ladies reading my blog this i have to state. but majority, and most ladies i associate myself with, tend to have the mentality that guys are just simply to be used, to be exploited and to be hung around them like a piece of jewellery, fashion statement, a fancy car. noticed how the genres of ladies around are coming together like one hugh mob of crazy fans screaming to be heard, and that its a organised and precise coordination of mayhem? just take trend for instance, 5 years ago the trend of being the "good-little-schoolgirl" was the in thing, everyone tried to be smart, intellectual and dates only the smart guys, 3 years ago was the "kawaii" stuff, and more recently, the korean heatwave.

i'm often left wondering, what happened to those "down-to-earth" kinda ladies? those which just wanna spend time with those whom they treasure, to appreciate, and not to dominate, to demand kinda ladies? what happen to them? did we men do something wrong along the way? i seriously dunno.. true love.. does it ever exisit?

sigh...

that's something i really dunno and i would really hope someone can give me an answer... shed some light on the shadow which has been lingering inside me for so long..

Retrieve, relive, repaired

2006-08-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

Victory!! today's business law paper was somewhat unexpected, well, things usually turn out that way, for some people like myself, well, it apparently works in a different manner of which motivates and also inspires me to do things and try things that i'll usually never do.
Today's paper was somewhat, well, difficult, easy for some, challenging for me, case laws that i refered to are well, apparent, but when i started counting marks, it just doesn't make sense, somehow i think i'm gonna flunk my business law module and get kicked out of school... again. sigh... perhaps my mind ain't working in a way it's suppose to be, or rather that it ain't working totally. can't focus, neither can i upon trying, actually remember most of the important things that matters the most to me.
Just finish watching Adam Sandler's "50 first dates", it was awsome. yeah, it's an ancient show that has been boardcasted long ago, but hey, im an oldies' person. :) in another way, it made me reaslise, perhaps you had me thinking too cedric, that life ain't simply just about work and commitment, it's how you make of it, and yeah, i kinda contridict myself at times, and i still do, but, to me seriously, love ain't something i'm looking for in life now, not as my priority, im only 22 and they are like micro-burst and before i even know it, damn, i might be 30 and still bringing home a $900 dollars a month if i don't put studies and career 1st. at least Henry (Adam sandler) knew what he wanted, to make a girl happy and has a life that he wanted, to sail to Alaska to study warrious, or at least that's how i spell it. :) i don't, my priority in life now, for the near future is not to establish a family, but a career, so yeah, stop telling me that i actually need to get a life, cause i do. rememeber what i always say to you,

"dreams will never become reality until you do something about it"

For all other things in life, well, they can come later, at least let me live a life that i have truely wanted and aspire to be not what the society wants, but what i want. It might not be pretty, it might not be good, but at least, that's my accomplishment, at least before i forget about it the other next day. haha...

Mood now: nervous and jumpy (exam period)
Songs playing now: I just don't love you (I'm sorry) - Craig David

Can't live with them, can't live without them

2006-08-14T04:03:00.000+08:00

Women
An adult female human.
Women considered as a group; womankind: “Woman feels the invidious distinctions of sex exactly as the black man does those of color” (Elizabeth Cady Stanton).
An adult female human belonging to a specified occupation, group, nationality, or other category. Often used in combination: an Englishwoman; congresswoman; a saleswoman.
Feminine quality or aspect; womanliness.
A female servant or subordinate.
Informal.
A wife.
A female lover or sweetheart. See Usage Note at lady. See Usage Note at man. See Usage Note at person.

Strange but somehow it says nothing about being more emotional nor did it say something which brings them more vulnerable to emotional traps?
just recieved a call from my friend mandy at let me check, 255am.. sheesh, and there i was having a hellofatime with my fantasy, and here comes along a whiny girl screaming to me the problem she had stuck with her for 1 1/2 mths time. The problem arose from my my buddy, ernest, who somehow got this magic ability to alter and change someone's life and prospective. INCREDIBLE!
What is love, what is happiness? well that's the question of the day, my answer is that, it's something not to be seeked but to be discovered accidentally. True love/happiness goes together hand in hand, ever wonder why whenever you wan to have a good relationship but often ending up screwing yourself at the end of it? wonder why the poorest of people often have the happiest life? well, because they do not demand, they only wish for it, but not crave for it. It's easier to turn the other cheeck when problem or mishaps that come along the way instead of running away, when i say turnin the other cheek it refers to being optismistic about it, look at it in a more light-hearted manner, it's not too hard to actually embrace the fact that things aint the way it's suppose to be.. the simplest answer's are often neglected by the excuses that are presented in front.

Ockcam's Razor
A rule in science and philosophy stating that entities should not be multiplied needlessly. This rule is interpreted to mean that the simplest of two or more competing theories is preferable and that an explanation for unknown phenomena should first be attempted in terms of what is already known. Also called law of parsimony.

For things that you already know, stop wallowing in self-pity and regret, if you already know what's the cause of it, stop finding more excuses and hurt yourself even more. God... somehow i find that i'm going insane from all these posting.. almost treating it like a person.. im tired... pen out..

Song playing now: Non
Mood: Tired & Fustrated

A Lonely Saturday...

2006-08-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Bored... Urgh.. reading stuff that doesn't get into my head, my body is craving for some action, my mind needs some stimulation, my hands needs some action, my feet just wanna start moving. Help!! im bored!!
Then again, i made myself that way.. hehehe.. afterall it's like only 1 week away from my exams.. oh did i mention? i lost my wallet and somehow, by some miracle of some idiots, picked up my wallet and did not bother returning it to me when they see me frantically searching high and low for it while they simply picked up; it was under my seat when they picked up.. darn bastards...
oh well, time to head back to my books, im being bugged by my friend of what am i doing, n if he knows i'm blogging i'll be complained of leaving him alone. Time to pen down.

Song listening now: Non
Mood: Hot and fustrated.

Another rainy day

2006-08-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

it's raining again!!! ARH!! had to rush home to get my windows closed, thank god my maid closed it for me in time. ^^ just came back from a chat with my friend cedric, and what a chat that was. Supposedly to be just a 10mins smoking session turned into a 2 1/2 hr chat of his problems. It's quite interesting how things turned out for someone. "what i want vs what i need"
For me, his current problem is that he do not know what he want and what he really needs, as a fella like myself, stuck in early 20s with O levels and nothing else, in NS and wake up call just hit in his face.. he's a really poor thing; dunno what he wants. A career with money? a job to satisfy him? just pure cash irregardless of job type? friends? what kind of friends does he want? just chill out friends? friends with benefits? the questions are endless.
my reply to him was simple, it boils down to one, "oneself"
when you know what you want, you'll do it irregardless of the hinderence and problems that might arise and fall upon you. when you are sure of your goals, age/money/politics/family/time/etc are not a factor in your goal, why? simple, you'll find route and means to overcome it.
Too old? when are you too old to learn something new?
Too poor? part-time jobs are available everywhere
politics? why do you want to get involve in it? just mind your own business
family? they are always there for you!!
etc? what other excuses are you giving yourself? stop it!
i really hope he can find the answers to all his questions, sometimes the easiest way out of a problem is to stop thinking about it and action. "dreams are always dreams unless you turn it into reality" for anyone out there reading my blog and if you are facing something similar, just remember this, nothing is impossible if you are determined. *smiles*

Song playing now: Lost prophet - Rooftop
Mood: calm, collective

i'm home!!

2006-08-09T06:33:00.000+08:00

yawn... i mean seriously, it's like 630am and i just got home? not ur typical eve-of-holiday-must-club kinda guy, but still, sheesh! now let me recall wad i did...
11am - woke up
12pm - lunch
1pm to 3pm - revision for exam
3pm to 5pm - House HD (axn)
5pm to 7pm - DOTA at beauty world bukit timah
7pm to 9pm - alazza and alameen
9pm to 11pm - DOTA at bukit timah shopping centre
11pm to 12am - Billard at bukit timah shopping centre
12am to 2am - poker cards at eurasian's guy's place
2am to 3am - with weiming,john,ren busy watching sg girls and their port folio (sssssizzzling HOT! wonder why can't i find them in NP...)
3am to 4am - dozing off.. still thinking of the chicks with tits (ps. not chicks with dicks..)
4am to 6am - Xbox
6am to 630am - walking home...
630am till now - blogging and about to doze off..

that's a wrap! met up with a bunch of guys supposedly to watch the fireworks but somehow too many raging hormones, in the end played DOTA which i had no idea WTF.. oh well, all's well end's well. if only i could find the ladies!!

Song listening now: non
Mood: sleepy and still missing those girls.. (fine.. im a loser, so sue me? o0o)

Time to go..

2006-08-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

It's 2 weeks and counting.. time for extreme panic and phobia for me, Fundemental Financial Accounting/Business Law/Finance of International Trade. hmmm.. what catagory do i fit in? i believe i belong to the slow-but-steady-but-if-don't-study-will-die. ><" so right now i'm like in Ngee Ann's library, level 5.. chilling out and singing to craig david, haha!! am i suppose to be even doing this? well, guess not, but it's a kinda nice way to chill out and take my mind off some issues... so here i am with Fuxian - the hyper manic, melissa - the sleepy one, jacqueline - the basketballer, zeming - the zebra.
How's my revision coming along? god.. it's really bad. Words and sentense just doesn't seem to enter nor have a place in my mind.. i really need to work on my brain department, wonder if there is any remedy for such a disease as "lousy-badmemory-brain* AKA LBB. Business law im like reading time and time again, but it just something it refuses to go in!! URGH!! so fustrating!!
today's been quite unfullfilling.. not much studied, too many fags, too many blister, too many jokes and laughter, hahaha.. its like something i have been missing too long.. wonder how long will this last..
oh well, time to pack my stuff and leave for home..

Songs playing now: Craig David - I just don't love you
Mood : Crappy!!!

Ever wonder...

2006-08-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder wad makes a good relation?
Is it the care and concern that your partner showers? or perhaps its the lust and musky scent that emits from the heat under those sheets? or perhaps its just plain old senseless love? unspoke of, unconditional, a person whom you thought is often taken for granted, but is literally indispensible. well, perhaps..
i wonder, what do i actually wnat? do i want a relationship of a girl whom i can take care of? or am i the one in need of being taken care of... been through several relationships but amist all, i have yet to understand what is the meaning of love; sad but true. i often ask myself this question. "Can i live without them?" often than not, the answer is yes. why? because i have so much on hands at the age of 23, darnit! Exams, socialising, parties, racing, gigs, booze , sports and so much more!! but again... at the end of each day, i often find myself savouring these feelings alone with the companionship of my 4 walls.. even with exisiting relationships, i've yet to actually find a really comfortable one; one which understands what i yearn for, what do i possess and help me with my directions. It's like a crossroad of needs verus wants.
yes, im a selfish guy, but hey, com' on , which guy is perfect right? Usually you will find self proclaimed top-of-the-breed guys that says "i know what i want/you are just a kid/you should learn to think on your own/etc" but yet at the same time, the they often contradict themselves, if not, becoming the legendary MCPs of singapore, if not SNAGs.. so i wonder.. what does make a good relation? if not a good partner?
i wonder...

Song playing now: Rhianna - Unfaithful
Mood : calm...

The beginning of the end

2006-08-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

Wow, time really flies when your're enjoying it.. been really caught up in my school work and stuff like that.. sheesh, couldn't make out what's my final destination nor my final objective, im literally living day by day... since the event that happen in year 2001/2002, my life's has never been the same again, and now, my worst fears are about to materialise, unless i actually walk out of from the shadows of shame and disbelief, if not, im screwed..
School's been a mess, especially with my project group mates, noticed how they never EVER learn from advises and even when answers have been placed in front of them, they simply choose to neglect and onli sulk at the person whom initially wanted to help them but in the end got the cold so-why-if-your-right look. Kids nowadays really need a good wooping to wake them up.
Talking about wooping, there's this new kid in class, or simply, kid. Ian, 18 years old, refusal to admit to his own mistakes, chinese punk kid with no sense of rythme, west-side wanna be with 2 piercing, white chinese trash, with lousy command of english, and did i say white trash? i mean chinese crap sh*t. Classic example of wannabes, social smoker who smokes but fears for this health, told him not to smoke in front of the toilet entrance if not could get caught, dun listen, *abracadabra* caught by lecturer. now comees the cute part, he couldnt say that he was smoking, instead ask me to lie to the school board in order to cover his sorry ass, sheesh! i mean, wads wrong with kids now a days? what happen to the "each man for himself" and "brotherhood" now is more like, "Divided we stand, united we fall", in hokkien, "ai si long zhong si"
now im like incredibly bored...

Songs I'm listening to: Nick Lachey - What's left of me
Mood: Hot and fustrated..